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  DARK HEARTS

  JEREMY BATES

  Copyright © 2015 by Jeremy Bates

  First Edition

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  This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual people, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

  ISBN: 978-0-9940960-9-8

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  Contents

  BLACK CANYON

  THE PRESENT

  1990

  THE PRESENT

  REWIND

  CHAPTER 1

  CHAPTER 2

  CHAPTER 3

  CHAPTER 4

  CHAPTER 5

  CHAPTER 6

  RUN

  PROLOGUE

  ONE YEAR LATER

  CHAPTER 1

  CHAPTER 2

  CHAPTER 3

  CHAPTER 4

  CHAPTER 5

  CHAPTER 6

  CHAPTER 7

  CHAPTER 8

  CHAPTER 9

  CHAPTER 10

  CHAPTER 11

  CHAPTER 12

  EPILOGUE

  NEIGHBORS

  PROLOGUE

  ONE DAY EARLIER

  EPILOGUE

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  BLACK CANYON

  THE PRESENT

  I didn’t want to kill them. I loved them. But sometimes you have to do what you have to do to survive. I think you’ll agree with me after you hear my account of what happened twenty-five years ago. I had no other choice. It was either them or me.

  ***

  A quarter of a century seems like forever ago. That would make the year in discussion the year the Berlin Wall fell, the year Iraq invaded Kuwait, the year The Simpsons debuted on television, the year the first webpage was published on the internet, and the year the Cincinnati Reds defeated the Oakland Athletics in the World Series in a four-game sweep. It was, I guess, a pretty great year all in all—at least, a pretty important one. On a more personal note, it was the year I kissed my first girl, the year I got a mountain bike for my birthday, and the year I broke my collarbone when I fell off that bike while biking where I wasn’t allowed to be biking.

  It was 1990. I was a grade-six student at Dry Creek Elementary School in Englewood, Colorado, and the people I killed were my parents.

  ***

  When you say Colorado most people think of skiing. Some think of Mesa Verde, or Garden of the Gods, or Estes Park, or Cañon City. Not many think of Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park. But they should. They should go there too, see it with their own eyes. It’s a breathtaking gorge half as deep as the Grand Canyon, though much, much narrower, which, in my opinion, makes it all the more spectacular. I try to return there once a year, partly for the scenery, but mostly for the memories.

  1990

  Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Monument (it wouldn’t be upgraded to national park status for another four years) is located in the western part of Colorado State, a bit south of center, making it a two-hour drive from Englewood, where I lived. My dad was behind the wheel of the eight-year-old Chevrolet Citation. My mom, in the seat next to him, was smoking a cigarette and reading one of those supermarket magazines that give you all the dirt on celebrities. I didn’t have any brothers or sisters, so I had the backseat to myself. I sat with my back against one door, my legs stretched out so my feet almost touched the opposite door. I didn’t have my seatbelt on, but my parents weren’t the type of parents who cared about seatbelts. In fact, they didn’t care about a lot of grown up stuff that other parents cared about. Junk food was okay in our house, for example. And I was allowed to come home from school whenever I wanted, as long as it wasn’t really late. I didn’t even have to call if I was staying at a friend’s for dinner, which I did a fair bit because neither my mom nor dad liked to cook much.

  It was Friday, October 24. My dad had told me I didn’t have to go to school this morning, which was awesome. Yet with both him and my mom around it didn’t feel like a real day off, like when I got to stay home sick by myself. It felt more like a regular old Saturday. Even so, a Friday feeling like a Saturday was still better than a Friday feeling like a Friday.

  We didn’t leave the house as early as my dad had wanted because my mom was hung over and refused to get out of bed before ten, so we were just getting to the southern rim entrance to Black Canyon now, around midafternoon. I was staring out the car window, watching the golden aspens and other turning trees disappear behind us as we entered into a tunnel of dark, somber evergreens that blocked out much of the daylight.

  When we stopped at a wooden gate, my parents started arguing about something. I tried to ignore them, but this proved too hard in the closed confines of the Chevy.

  “What if someone checks, Steve?” my mom was saying in the same tone she used when she was cross at me.

  “Who’s going to check?” my dad replied offhandedly, annoyed, like he thought my mom was overreacting. “Camping season is over. There’s nobody here but us.”

  “A ranger probably comes by.”

  “It’s a waste of money.”

  “It’s called the honor system.”

  “What are you, a Girl Scout?”

  “Don’t be so cheap.”

  Grumbling, my dad opened his door. “It’s just going to sit there, you know?”

  My mom didn’t look at him or say anything; she already knew she’d won.

  My dad climbed out of the car and stuck his head back inside. “Or some kids are going to come along and pilfer it.”

  “Kids?” my mom said, raising her eyebrows amusedly. “Look around, Steve. We’re in the middle of nowhere. And you said there’s nobody—”

  He slammed his door shut and circled the vehicle. He stopped before a little wooden box sitting atop a pole. He took his wallet from his back pocket—he got the wallet as a free gift with a case of beer he’d bought during Labor Day weekend—and produced several one dollar bills.

  “What’s Dad doing, Mom?” I asked.

  “Paying the camping fee, hon.” She kept her attention on my dad, likely to make sure he put the money in the box and didn’t fake it. My mom was right: my dad could be pretty cheap sometimes. I’d been bugging him for a raise in my allowance a lot lately, but he wouldn’t negotiate. I got the same one dollar a week that I got when I first started getting an allowance two years before. It sucked. One small bag of salt and vinegar chips and a can of Pepsi wiped me out until the following weekend. My mom was a bit more generous. She usually gave me fifty cents, or sometimes a whole dollar when I asked her politely. I had to have a good excuse handy, like I needed to take the bus somewhere. Still, what I got from her added up, and I was no longer considered the poor kid by my friends. That dishonor went to Ralph Stevenson. His dad didn’t work either, and he was always begging everyone for a spare dime or quarter. We never gave him anything, but we often shared our lunches with him. All his mom ever packed him was a raw carrot and a couple pieces of buttered bread.

  My dad stuffed the dollar bills into the slit in the wooden box, cast my mom a you-happy-now? look, then returned to the car.

  “Thank you,” she told him as he shifted the transmission into first and popped the clutch.
/>   He grunted, and we continued in silence to the campground. I never said anything when my parents were fighting with each other. I’ve learned it was best to simply “zip it,” an expression my dad used a lot, and to wait the fight out. Otherwise chances were good I would become the focus of their anger and get grounded or spanked for doing nothing.

  The campground, my dad had told me earlier, contained three loops of campsites. Loop A was open year round, while Loops B and C were open spring to early fall. Being late October, I figured we must be driving to a campsite in Loop A.

  A few minutes later we parked in a small clearing and got out of the car and looked around at the crowding forest. “Smell that, Brian!” my dad said, inhaling deeply and clapping me on the shoulder roughly.

  I sniffed. “Smell what?” The air was cool, brittle, reminding me that Halloween was next week.

  “Nature!” he exclaimed. “You won’t smell that back in the city.”

  “Worth four bucks, if you ask me,” my mom said. She was standing on the other side of the car and cupping her hands around a cigarette she was lighting.

  “Bitch all you want, Suz, you’re not going to spoil my mood.”

  “Dad,” I said, “can you open the trunk?”

  “All I want,” he went on, ignoring me, “is a bit of peace and quiet. That so much to ask? A bit of peace and quiet?”

  “Dad?”

  “What?”

  “Can you open the trunk?”

  He glared at me.

  “I need my tent,” I said.

  Reaching inside the car, he pulled a trigger that released the trunk lid. I went to the trunk, lifted the lid, and collected my tent and backpack.

  The clearing was little more than the size of a baseball infield. The amenities included a vault toilet, a picnic table, and a grill. I stopped at a flat spot of ground a good distance away from the car and upended the nylon tent bag, dumping the poles and guy ropes and metal spikes onto the mat of spongy pine needles. There was no instruction booklet—or if there once had been, it had been long since lost—and it took me a solid half hour to set the thing up properly (and even then I wasn’t sure I had constructed it correctly as it seemed to lean drunkenly to one side).

  Still, it wasn’t falling over, and that was good enough for me. I glanced at my parents. They had set their tent up next to the car and were standing with their arms around each other.

  Happy they were in one another’s good books again, I joined them and said, “So what do we do now?”

  “Huh?” my mom said. She’d been staring off into the distance with one of her thinking faces on.

  “I said—”

  “Sit back and relax,” my dad told me. He released my mom’s waist and snatched a bottle of beer from the blue Eskimo cooler chest that sat on the ground, next to the Chevy’s front tire. He twisted off the cap, flicked it away into the trees, and took a long sip.

  “I hope it’s not going to rain,” my mom said.

  I looked where she was looking and saw that the sky had smudged over with dark storm clouds.

  “It won’t, baby doll,” my dad said. “It’ll blow over.”

  “Can I have a beer, Dad?” I asked.

  “Even if it does,” he said, hooking his arm around my mom’s waist once again and kissing her on the cheek, “we’ll just go inside the tent. It’s waterproof. And I think we can figure out something to do there.” His hand slipped off the small of her back to her rear.

  She swatted it away. “Not in front of Brian, Steve.”

  “Dad?” I said.

  “What?”

  “Can I have a beer?”

  “You hear that, Suz? The boy wants a beer.”

  “Can I?” I said.

  “Hell no. You’ll just waste it.”

  I frowned, but I wasn’t disappointed, not really. My dad had given me sips from his beers before, and I didn’t like the taste of them. I only asked for one to show him I wasn’t still a little kid. He was always treating me like I was still in grade four or something.

  “Have a Pepsi, hon,” my mom said. “And bring me a bottle of wine while you’re at it.”

  I removed the lid from the cooler. “Which one?” I asked. Three wine bottles floated in the icy water alongside brown bottles of beer and blue-and-red Pepsi cans.

  “You choose, angel.”

  I selected the bottle with the fanciest label and brought it to my mom, along with a Styrofoam cup that had been in a plastic bag next to the cooler. Then I returned for my Pepsi and popped the tab before my mom changed her mind about letting me have one before dinner.

  My dad’s hand, I noticed, had found its way down to my mom’s rear again, but this time she didn’t swat it away.

  I said, “What are we having for dinner?”

  “Hot dogs,” my dad told me.

  “Yeah! Are we going to cook them on the grill or over the fire?”

  I don’t think he heard me, because he was asking my mom where she wanted the folding chairs.

  “Right over there,” she said. “By the fire pit.”

  He went to the car’s trunk, which he’d left propped open so it resembled the mouth of a sunbaking alligator, and carried two slat-back folding chairs to the stone ring that formed the perimeter of the fire pit.

  “Dad?” I said, following him.

  “What, Brian?”

  “Can we cook them over the fire? The hot dogs?”

  “You can cook your wieners over the fire, if you want. But you’re going to need to find a sharp stick.”

  “Can I go look now?”

  “That’s a great idea.”

  “Don’t go too far,” my mom called

  I spent about an hour wandering the woods surrounding the campground, looking for the perfect stick. I didn’t know what characteristics the perfect stick entailed, but I figured it needed to be long enough so I didn’t burn my hands in the fire, thick enough so it didn’t snap beneath the weight of the wiener, and have a thin, pointy tip. In the end I found one that sported all these requisites, plus, as a bonus, it ended in three prongs, like a devil’s scepter, which meant I could cook three wieners at once.

  When I returned to the campground to show the stick to my parents, I found them lounging in the folding chairs, my mom laughing at something my dad was telling her. Loud music played from the portable stereo, some old-fashioned stuff, maybe Elvis, or The Beatles.

  “Look at my stick!” I said as I approached them.

  “That’s lovely, Brian,” my mom said. She had one of her funny smelling cigarettes pinched between her fingers. The filter was smeared with red lipstick.

  “Dad? Look.” Four empty beer bottles sat next to him on the ground.

  “Let me see that.” He held out his hand.

  Beaming, I passed it to him.

  He snapped off two of the prongs, then handed it back. “That’s better.”

  I was too shocked to say anything. My eyes smarted with tears. I turned around and pretended to be interested in the stick.

  “Brian?” he said.

  “Yeah?” I said.

  “Grab me another beer, will ya?”

  Rubbing the tears from my cheeks—there had only been a couple—I opened the cooler and grabbed a beer. I considered asking my mom if I could have another Pepsi, but I didn’t because I knew she would say no. I brought the beer to my dad, then sat on the ground a few feet away from him.

  I listened to my parents’ conversation for a bit. They were talking about their friends. My mom kept calling one of the women she worked with a skank. I wondered if maybe she meant “skunk.” Sometimes when she was drinking she didn’t always pronounce her words correctly. And I could tell she was a little drunk already. Her face was flushed, her eyes filmy. My dad wouldn’t be drunk, not after four beers, but he probably had what he called a buzz.

  He cracked open the beer I’d given him, then asked my mom for the cigarette she was smoking. He didn’t smoke, not every day like she did, but he would hav
e the funny smelling ones every now and then.

  I leaned back on my elbows and breathed deeply. Despite my dad breaking my stick, and despite shivering a bit in the chill autumnal night, a swell of contentment washed over me. I liked times like these, when my parents were drinking alcohol. It was weird because in the movies parents drinking alcohol always yelled at their kids, or hit them. But mine were the opposite. They didn’t fight as much, and they became nicer to me, more attentive.

  “Hey, is there electricity here?” I asked suddenly, wondering if I could charge my Gameboy. I glanced at the stereo. There was no cord; it was running on batteries.

  “Nope,” my dad said. “But there’s water in case you get thirsty.”

  I knew that. I had seen the rusty tap poking out of the ground.

  “By the way, Bri-guy,” he added. “We’re going to need some tinder and firewood to make the fire before it gets dark. How about you go find us some?”

  “Do you want to come with me?” I asked.

  “Not right now. I’ve had a long day. You go along.”

  I went, even though I figured my day had been about as long as his had been.

  Half an hour later I had built a good stockpile of tinder and kindle and firewood next to the fire pit. My dad came over and joined me and soon had a fire going. It was just in time too, as the last of the daylight was seeping from the sky, turning it a muddy orange that quickly bled to red, then to purplish-black.

  My mom set the picnic table with paper plates and napkins while my dad got the grill going. I slipped two slimy Oscar Mayer wieners from the package and impaled one on my stick and kept the other gripped in my left hand. Then I extended the stick with the attached wiener into the fire and turned it slowly, like a rotisserie. When the wiener had blistered and blackened, I extracted it and took a bite.

  “Ow!” I yelped.

  “It’s going to be hot,” my mom told me from the picnic table. I could barely see her in the dark.

  I blew on the wiener to cool it down, ate it quickly, then stuck the second one on the stick and repeated the cooking process. To my dismay, it slipped off the prong and dropped into the fire and ashes.